Thoughts

With me being home right now, I keep thinking that I should super-clean my house or be baking bread or finally catch up on our laundry. But I haven't done those things. I get to spend time with Tafton which is awesome but he is such a Momma's boy tht it's hard for me to do anything by myself without him screaming for me to pick him up or walk him around(which even though he can crawl to get around now, he still likes to walk. He practically started skipping today he was so excited about it). Once Tafton goes down for his nap I start looking for a job or doing homework (I'm taking two online classes). So even without me working right now I don't have a lot of free time to do all these things I thought I would do if I was a stay-at-home Mom. I guess I think I should be this perfect wife and Mother and and I think I'm picturing the 50's housewife. I should be wearing an apron with my hair immaculate and my house smelling like warm out of the oven bread. But it doesn't. I feel good if I get out of pajama pants, and my house probably smells like Tafton's diapers (which have been a real treat since he's started eating real food;-) ).

I've applied at a lot of places and haven't heard back from any of them. It's only been five days of putting my name out there but I'm starting to get worried that if I don't get at least an interview soon that we're going to have to try to sell our house. Most of the places I've been applying are through online job searches, I haven't looked through the paper yet because we don't get the paper but I need to start doing that too.

It would be so nice if we could find a way for me to stay home with Tafton and with a new baby on the way. I think with two kids under two it would just be easiest for me to be with them. Especially since I'll be breastfeeding. It kinda sucks that we were born when we were. okay that sounds weird but if we had been born five years earlier we'd be done with school and could get better paying jobs easier. If we were born five years later (we wouldn't be married or be out of school or have Tafton) then by the time we were really trying to get jobs and have kids maybe this recession would be done.

I know this hasn't been the most upbeat of posts but it's just some thoughts that have been going through my head. More upbeat posts to come.

not so good news

This last Friday I was laid off from my job at Wadman Corporation. They had told us three weeks ago that we needed to come up with cost saving ideas or they would be facing layoffs. This was extremely scary for me since I'm the breadwinner in our family. I came up with, I felt like, a lot of ideas to save money, but I guess all of our ideas weren't enough.
So I got called in and got the bad news. It sucked. I had worked there for about 2 1/2 years. It's the longest I've ever been at a job other than Zenger's. I really liked working there, I'm going to miss my friends there. Although I plan on coming in and visiting from time to time.
Now I need to find a new job and fast so we don't become another statistic and lose our house. I've filed for unemployment and I've already applied at a couple of places. If anyone hears of anywhere that is hiring PLEASE let us know.
We love you all. Please keep us in your prayers.